What's on your mind?

[PK8]

http://imgur.com/a/xR791#5gxsL

Oh god... This is just terrifying.

Fear of Spiders has gained 1394 experience points!
Fear of Spiders is now level 36.
Fear of Spiders is evolving!
Congratulations! Your Fear of Spiders has evolved into Arachnophobia!

Thank you very much. It's not like I wasn't going to sleep anyway, I'm up at 8am in the morning (no sleep).

Anyway, so consider this post to be a continuation of my other post. I was watching American Reunion a few hours ago and it made miss her. I'm thinking about giving her a call and see if I can make it all up and possibly get us back on speaking terms (or if worse comes to worse, a decent closure). I miss her a lot, and constantly thinking about where we all are in life gets me damn upset.

I'm pissed off that her ex, her very first boyfriend, a friend of mine for a good few years, left her hanging and then dumped her over the fucking phone. It made her disillusioned with the idea of having a relationship. Then I come along, help her out, become good friends with her and so forth after that, did things together for a good three years despite struggling and juggling between school/work/getting our personal lives together, and then I had to scrounge up the money to get her a birthday cake gift since no one even bought her some damn cake.

I used my YouTube partnership money (which isn't much), I sold lemonade (and not that horse-made mmm sweet lemonade either), I sold T-shirts, I sold my guitar, and I even built a damn porn site just so I can get paid a good amount of money so I can buy her a damn birthday gift.

Her ex? He fucking works at the High School we went to and he's way better off than the both of us. She's now a bookworm (not that that's a bad thing!), into roleplay, a recluse, and a loner, and I'm fucking miserable. FUCK!

And remember that bit about me losing hair? Yeah, I was serious. The length went from my upper back to my ear. I've lost that much.

[Do not gazette this.]