What's on your mind?

[Kain Nobel]

Somebody in our family was found dead today. No clue how long they've been deceased. This is the 11th person this year, that I know of. Last month, we lost 3 family friends within the span of a week, one was suicide. Too angry to be sad about it.

2023, the year of death and decay. Went into this year with no hope of anything positive coming out of it, and I've not been disappointed. On New Years, I pre-emptively lowered my expectations. Yeah, can't wait to put this year behind us, hurry up and be over already. What a dumpster fire.

I think 2024 will be the year of awesome. No clue why I've been so optimistic about 2024, maybe just for no reason whatsoever, but I've been waiting for 2024 ever since 2021. So much focus on this year. Don't ask me why, I couldn't tell you. The pendulum is going to swing in the other direction, and everybody will be happy 2024 because... reasons. Shh, don't shatter my optimism. No bad vibes. Better days ahead, m'kay? BETTER DAYS AHEAD! Repeat that a thousand times today: Better days ahead. Go to bed thinking about it, because nobody wants to live in a world of crap.

Focus on self-improvement, or a big goal, for 2024. Nothing vain. Since ditching alcohol and marijuana, I am going to purify myself and purge my addiction to nicotine products. Before 2024. NO. MORE. NICOTINE!!! Cigarettes are a waste of money, and a waste of life.

I wonder what happened to the PSA: "Tumor causing, teeth staining, smelly puking habit!" Genius summary. I never wanted to smoke. How the hell did I wind up smoking? Whatever. It's done for. I'm repeating that phrase in my head all day, because I want this idea to stick.