Current version: 1st(22 Feb 2026)
While it's natural to treat our cities of birth as our eternal roots, when they start dying slowly for decades and all we can do is to watch them gradually burn into ashes, it's only understandable for us to move to new homes and leave those forsaken roots behind :(
Current version: 1st(22 Feb 2026)
As the world is inevitably complex and uncertain but the mankind is inherently fragile and afraid of dying, it'd be all too easy for most people to accumulate many deep Childhood Trauma like a faulty OS full of severe vulnerabilities, causing them to be passively injected by tons of limiting beliefs equivalent to computer viruses that frequently trigger their immense fear of death without them knowing, thus psychologically forcing them to engage in Self-defeating behaviors like infected machines that keep harming themselves as well as the others who'll also be instantly trapped by Amygdala Hijack, eventually leading to probably unstoppable chain reactions like an endless pandemic.
Although it'd be ideal for the most capable and resourceful ones to step up and help the humanity, they're also likely the most able ones to push their responsibilities onto the weaker ones, then it's only natural, under the apparent need of survival without those so-called threats, for the least powerful ones to be accountable for all those complexities for the rest of their lives.
While this can largely centralize those originally widespread misfortune into those especially unlucky ones, it's just the modern version of Human Sacrifice by cornering them to die from starvation after a prolonged lack of the material necessities or commit suicide due to multiple mental disorders.
As long as the majority are still unable to be aware that they've been living in low Levels of Consciousness, they'll need to think that it's all about clear rights and wrongs and be afraid of being incorrect, so they'll have to blame those deceased scapegoats for anything that can be linked to the latter, or the Just World Hypothesis being their only safety net would collapse, meaning that the societies would suffer from such mass panic that they can't even seem to run anymore X(
03-01-2026, 05:58 AM (This post was last modified: 03-04-2026, 03:00 PM by DoubleX.)
I just made my 71st, 72nd and 73rd published songs:
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Current version: 1st(26 Feb 2026)
They feel sorry for consuming food and water, they feel sorry for taking in oxygen and emitting carbon dioxide, they feel sorry for accidentally triggering Amygdala Hijack of even the most mentally unpredictable and unstable ones, and they feel sorry for saying sorry as well as not saying sorry...
In short, they feel sorry for existing and trying to cease existing, it's as if they forced their parents to be parents and especially THEIR parents, and it's as if they should've undone all the "harm" unknowingly done by them, as well as given hefty compensations for all those so-called wrongdoings :(
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Current version: 1st(27 Feb 2026)
Some aren't just ashamed of what they've done, but also of their very existence, and no amount of behavioral redemption can really relief such shame. Trying to let go of permanent shame by correcting the surface of oneself is like subtracting infinity by many large yet still finite numbers, and the end result will still be unending shame within your core X(
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Current version: 1st(1 Mar 2026)
While we all know that we've to sharpen the axe if we want to raise our long-term throughput, it's very often that, just when we're about to have time to do so, you'll be urgently ordered to immediately cut another tree using that already dull axe, and these excessive emergencies will keep the crunch mode on steroids, especially when the organizations seem to be "always" on the edge of collapse :(
Current version: 1st(3 Mar 2026)
They feel that they've almost lost everything and they can't find any way to ever come back, so they think that it's such an irrevocable tragedy that their lives already have no hope, then it's only natural for them to keep sobbing in agony while passively waiting for all this to end badly :(
P.S.: It's the 4th of my published music that can make me weep slightly for at least a short time :)
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Current version: 1st(4 Mar 2026)
There can be times where almost no one will even try to understand you a bit, and they'll instead find fault with you no matter what you do or not do, but you still wanna be at least slightly compatible with them, so you just accept their criticism and become ashamed of yourselves. Now all you'll have is unstoppable weeping when you're alone, until you've no tears left to cry and feel that your very existence are already too much :(
I just made my 76th, 77th and 78th published songs:
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Current version: 1st(5 Mar 2026)
For some, they're so afraid of being forgotten that they'd rather risk their lives if they think that it's the only way for them to be remembered; But for some others, they want to be forgotten so much that they feel that they should had never existed X(
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Current version: 1st(6 Mar 2026)
For those who wants to be successful even at the cost of everything else, even a fake success is still much better than nothing, so they don't care whether such a life is what they truly want, or if the others really believe in their well-forged personal image, as long as things still appear to work the way they seem to desire, until they can no longer lie to anyone including themselves :(
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Current version: 1st(7 Mar 2026)
As you're the only source of income for your parents, those of your spouse as well as your kids, you feel obliged to provide for them all until you retire, so you feel trapped into your toxic yet well-paid job that's totally against your values, and you know that this crippling stagnation will eventually kill your soul by thousand cuts accumulated for years, so all you can do is to powerlessly watch your heart being slowly teared apart by ever increasing tensions built day by day X(
