What's on your mind?

[kyonides]

What I have told you before seemed to be quite serious but it obviously was out of my control. I guess that makes it relatively irrelevant after a while. What isn't as easy to deal with would be an offer I've got recently. At first it was the second offer of its kind I have received lately and seemed to be excessively interesting. Nonetheless every single time I get more information about it, the less likely accepting the offer sounds like a good idea. I'm not saying life isn't full of such things here and there, still, it got extremely restrictive the last time I got an update concerning how it actually works. I was warned it wouldn't be easy to get it, now I can only imagine it might be worthless to partake in it if something doesn't change soon. As I said it's not the first time I've received such an offer. Actually the first one was ridiculously disappointing because it ended up in a promise to resume the process after it was either cancelled or delayed for a reason that remains a true mystery.

Should I take this one seriously? Should I let it go? At the end we aren't talking about something local or national but international here. My chances are slim and I would need to go through 3 or 4 stages before I actually know if it was worth the effort and I will be getting my prize so to say. I know I shouldn't think like a child and believe stuff should have been "fair" from the beginning. When has any known competition been fair anyway? So this has been rather confusing in the last couple of hours...